My Journey so far...
Ever since I can remember back, I have felt the calling to help others. When I was a young kid, my parents had loads of spiritual books but it was forbidden for me to touch them or to go anywhere near them. So I sneaked them out at night or whenever they weren't at home, one after the other. I was fascinated by the world that opened up to me. While my mom really didn't want me to go there, my dad slowly opened up for discussions. I still remember how much I loved chatting with my dad about reincarnation, the Akashic Records, karma and the spirit world in general. He was talking and I was listening. And I always begged for more. The spiritual realm was so much more interesting than the physical world. In a way, still is. But I know now that we have a human experience and enjoying life as it is, is just as important.
Having had this early exposure to the spirit world proved to be a double-edged sword. While my dad accepted that I have the ability to communicate with spirit and he sometimes asked me to channel messages from them, the rest of the world was far less accepting or forgiving. So as a young child I learned very early on that it is better to conceal who I really am deep down. As a result, I spent my school years lonely and just couldn't fit in. I would always think there was something wrong with me and I had to be careful how I react with my words. Obviously, I couldn't share what I was experiencing so I started to distance myself and speak less and less and eventually I shut my abilities and emotions down and became quite a shy and serious person.
For many years, I pursued a career in science and teaching as well as in the fashion world. While I enjoyed some of these endeavours, I was always aware that something was missing.
Eventually, I decided to leave my country to pursue a job opportunity, oddly enough, this time in the form of a possible art career. Little did I know, that the inner craving to move to the UK was orchestrated by powers beyond me and that the spirit world had a different idea when it comes to my path. From a hindsight, they started to prepare me for a course-correction. Spirit can indeed be really interesting.
The same year I met a man that I shared a connection with I had never experienced before. It was something beyond comprehension and the energies were off the charts. When he left, I experienced excruciating pain and was looking for answers. After a year of trying to put the pieces together with zero results, I finally gave in. One day, out of frustration, I addressed spirit and said I am open to any kind of help and want to listen to spirit again if they are open to have me back. The very next day I was led to my first real mentor who has been a dear friend ever since. Under gentle guidance and a lot of deep consciousness work, I could finally find my way back to the once cheerful, playful and open-hearted person I like to define myself. Spirit indeed had something else in mind, for me to remember who I really am and begin a journey of experiencing self-expression and love and just to enjoy life. After all, as they say, that is why I am here.
